I remember when I first tried it. I waited until nobody was home and I turned on the computer as quietly as possible. When the computer booted up I got a rush thinking about what was seconds away from happening. It was all so naughty and exciting at the same time. When I went to the website I felt like a forty-niner who had just struck gold. Tits and ass everywhere you looked and as far as the eye could see. It was great!

It wasn’t until looking up porn on the internet became a necessity that it started getting weird. It did take me a long while to get to that point because, let’s face it, it is porn. But once it gets to the point of compulsion and not just for the physical gratification it’s pretty easy to realize that something is wrong. I know it sounds strange to say, but I was addicted to porn. I eventually got to the point where it was literally like clockwork. Late at night or whenever no one was around I’d slip into the back room with the old lap top and go online. I’d sit there for hours and just stare at the screen wondering why I couldn’t turn away. It was scary.

Since those days I’ve gotten help from people who really know what I’m going through. Pure porn addiction help from real porn addiction recovery specialists. Getting help was the best thing I’ve ever done and it helped my life get back to normal.